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| You know what really drives me nuts? People who expect others to do their job for them; I just hate it, it drives me crazy. The people who are basically forced to do their job get really stressed, it doesn't make for an easy day. People don't deserve to be put through things like that; they do their job, you do yours; how hard can it be, I just don't understand the logic. | | |
| I'm trying hard not to think of camp. I really should have gone, but oh well, nothing I can do about it now. Maybe I'll have more to talk about later. | | |
| Well, regrettably I've decided not to go to camp this year. It was a last minute decision, I'm supposed to leave on Monday. However, due to personal issues, I just cannot do it. I'm afraid it would be too humiliating, not to mention the embarrassment. It was a hard decision; this would have been my fifth year, possibly my last. I love camp. Times spent at camp will be ones I'll never forget. To some, the reason I'm not going to camp might be a stupid one. It certainly was a decision that took a lot of thought; it wasn't easy, that's for sure. It's even harder for me to live with it because someone always pays my way to camp, this person is the nurse during the week in which I go. Oh, I went to graduation last night; it's hard to believe that'll be me next year. I saw Ms. Schaper; that was hard, just because I'm having to realize that I'm not as close to her as I thought. I never know anymore, I mean, I thought Marie was different, now I'm not so sure. | | |
| No lunch, no movies, forget it. What I feared is happening. I knew it would end up this way, I just kept telling myself what she said was real. I really do hate the fact that I get so attached to people so often. It just tares me apart, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I get my hopes up just to have them shot right back down. It's as if I get so emotionally involved and then all of the sudden, reality comes crashing down. She didn't promise, no, but she sounded pretty confident that it could and would happen. All she said was "have a good summer." At that point, I was so emotionally drained, I just said it right back to her as if she was just someone I passed on the street. I cannot keep living my life like this, it'll kill me, that's if something else doesn't kill me first. I just can't handle it anymore, I've given up on having any kind of relationship with anyone. | | |
| I got a 76 on my English regents; the task III killed me, it was awful, I'm taking it again in Augus, January, and June, that way I can keep trying to improve my score. Alright well, I'm done now. | | |
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